The Last Blog

Dear Diary,

This is most likely going to be the last time i could open, write or even look at my journal. I am exhausted from all this torture. My mental and physical health is getting weaker and weaker. I cannot betray Julia though. I don't know what they are planning to do with me but i no longer have hope that i can live. I don't want to go through this pain anymore. I wonder where Julia is or what she is even doing. Did they torture her too? Did she have to go through what I’m going through? Though i can't seem to hate or love big brother. Confusion is all I feel right now. I feel empty; I don’t know what to do anymore. I can’t seem to agree with their knowledge of life. I have my own opinions but for them that’s not acceptable. I don’t want to live like this anymore. I want to live freely, where I can love who I want, say I what I want and be who I want. I want to be able to say that 2 + 2 is 4, not 5. I hear them coming, I hear the words Room 101. I feel the end coming.