Behind that door

As I am being interrogated by O’Brien. I can feel my spine splitting into two piece with this endless torture. I refuse to let Big Brother's brainwash me into a follower just like everyone else. I just want to have the freedom to express myself. How does 2 + 2 equal to 5? I don’t know, but I am expected to believe that. How long have I been in here until I am free? I’m not quite sure myself. Maybe… months? years? decades? I don't know what to expect and I actually know what to believe in anymore. I thought I could trust O’Brien, he was always there wasn't he? I had a nightmare and screamed Julia’s name. There, O’Brien caught me. I can’t believe he’s placing me in a Room 101? I wonder what method he’s going to use in that room? I hope it isn't my worst fear…. How pathetic would that be though? How could I have possibly believed he would rebel with me? Within that room, is there a new light for maybe the both of us? Is someone waiting for me somewhere else in the world? Or will it be the doom of us… Do I have to die to gain my freedom? I suppose so, what’s there to lose anyway besides Julia. What’s going to happen to her?  I hope she knows that I will always love her and that I will never betray her. Even with this endless fear of what’s behind that door, maybe Julia will be awaiting for me, or my family. Until then, goodbye.