Julia

October 1984

I finally got to meet Winston, he wasn't what I expected to be but I'm okay with it. Only thing that bothered me, is that he wanted to gruesomely murder and rape me, but it's all clear now. I've had sex with a countless amount of men, but it seemed really different with him. I felt true passion when we made love, it's like he's been deprived of love this whole time.I'm glad I got a chance to make him feel happy, because I'm starting to develop feelings for this man. But it's going to be hard, I know our love is forbidden because of the rules set here in Oceania. He's married with children already and we also made love with sexual desires, not for the success of our country. I plan on meeting him again in the future. Hopefully we could have a chance to make more passionate love with each other.