Winston's Reflection

"I love you." 

I love you, she tells me but for what?

 I love you as in I want to be with you and care about you

 OR

I love you as in I'm just lying to you now and I'll end up using you and leaving you.

Is this a dream? Can we finally go against them? I loved her ever since I first saw her but this is a forbidden love. She's too pure, too young to be one of them. How can someone so pretty, so perfect be living in this cruel world. It's almost fake..Can I even trust her, a complete stranger. She can make anything up and I wouldn't know. Everything that comes out of her mouth may just be lies. Why was she following me for so long? What if this really was real? 

This place isn't safe. Nowhere is safe anymore. I can't even tell anyone or anything without being recorded. Once they see this, they'll catch me, vaporize me for good. The only place safe now is the mind, only I can know my own thoughts now. 

Winston, 1984