Room 101

 I have been tortured so much I don't know what is and what isn't anymore. I thought I remembered something but my memories deceive me. I thought that O'Brien was a rebel, but he was not. I thought 2+2=4 but O'Brien says it equals five. O'Brien must be right, He can stop my pain. Whatever O'Brien says must be true. I'm sure he holds 4 fingers, but he says five. When I say five the pain stops. O'Brien must be right if he can stop this pain. The pain is unbearable but I must keep persevering. For Julia. I hope she has not betrayed me because my love for her will keep me from doing so. O'Brien can do to me what he wants. As long as I love Julia, nothing else matters. Yet, thee may be one thing that could break me. Room 101... Everyone speaks about i but I still don't know what is inside. I hope I can get a hold of a razor blade before then. I am having nightmares about this room. That room holds all our nightmares yet I can't figure out what awaits us. I will soon figure out what this room holds. I better find a razor blade before then.

-Winston