Julia and I

October 1984

Dear Diary,

When Julia told me she loved me, I didn’t know whether or not to believe it.

At least she had the guts to write me a simple note saying so. But, how was I supposed to trust her, though? She is part of the Junior Anti-Sex League. She could have been spying on me. She could have been using me. She could have been tricking me, and luring me into loving her so that she could arrest me eventually for doing so! I didn’t know what I was thinking.

She seems so pure. I didn’t think she would use me like that. I still don’t.

Actually, I won’t ever think that way again. Now I know she wouldn’t, because she didn’t. She truly did have feelings for me. She was willing to risk getting caught to meet up with me.  In fact, when we met up, we confessed our love for each other.

I didn’t think I’d have feelings for her. I mean, I didn’t think I’d return the feelings she had for me. However, with these strong, passionate feelings for each other, we can fight and rebel against Big Brother’s oppression. With our love, we have a weapon.