Victory

December 1984, I can hear O'Brien telling the guards to take me to Room 101. I can’t believed I trusted him. I almost considered him as a friend. O'Brien had tortured me so much, I almost believed the Party slogans. But deep down I know, war is not peace, ignorance is not strength, and slavery is not freedom.

I am not afraid of O'Brien, but I am definitely afraid of room 101. I heard so many scary things about it. I hope that there won't be any rats. The last time I heard about a rat, Julia was there to protect me.

Where is Julia? Has she betrayed me? I hope not.

It’s so hard for me to sleep at night. I screamed Julia’s name so many times. I know this will get me into more trouble, but I cannot stop thinking about her. I love Julia so much. I will always love her. No matter what, I will never forget the time we spent together. One memory that I can’t keep out of my head was when we met each other in the woods. I also remembered asking her about her sexual life, and it made me happy knowing that the only men she has been with, are the Inner Party members. I have to go now, I hope it's not my last journal... P.S Being here makes me realizes I have a new goal: to die hating the Party. That will be a victory for me.

Sincerely, O'Brien